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Melancholia

by Mauricio Ibáñez

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1.
When I was a young boy My heart broke in pieces Twenty years later The rest had all turned grey I tried to change but all my feelings were different shades of blue The rainbow teased But that just wasn't me I know who I am I suffered in all possible ways It couldn't get worse Grey is my mind Grey is my light Grey is my life With hints of blue All I ever had were red plastic lips with painted smiles I didn't matter How pretty their fucking faces were One night stands Never made me feel good at all I never got it And still I haven't got anything Grey is my mind Grey is my light Grey is my life With hints of blue When I go to my bed I think of you and then smile I wish I was someone you could love But I am who I am Don't hate me please It's not my fault the way things turned out Keep the good times We spent together when things were good I'll see you again in my grey dreams with hints of blue Grey is my mind Grey is my light Grey is my life With hints of blue
2.
Pure 03:25
​Many years ago When I was a boy I had a precious soul Untainted by the world You could feel The happiness Reaching out Filling space An angel pure Buried in the soil Was a metal box All the things I loved Are sealed forevermore Now I see A shadow My former self Is gone An angel pure uhhh uhhh uhhh uhhh Sometimes I wish for My innocence to come back Back when I was young And everything was so new You could feel The happiness Reaching out Filling space Reaching out everywhere An angel pure
3.
​I feel the sun again warming up my skin Awake in dreams So real I wish it never ends Ahhh (x4) I see your face so pale Smiling innocence It makes me feel so good Your laughter in my head Ahhh (x8) You call my name so softly A whisper in my ear Your deep brown eyes Make me feel So loved inside my heart
4.
Chest Pain 05:05
​I think you are not Cut out to be here So sly So sly I think you are not worthy of my time you liar you liar I feel the burn inside this chest pain won’t go away I think you are just waiting for the time to fly to fly I think you are just planning for a way to escape to fade You toyed with my soul You toyed with my mind You toyed with my heart You toyed with my life Stay away from me
5.
​Down here Away from the sun Inside A blackened soul Infected Corrupted Addicted To a nameless vice The face of the void it swallows all hope The face of the void it feeds on your soul Down here Away from the sun Outside A shadowy ghoul Infected Corrupted Addicted To a faceless crime The face of the void It swallows all hope The face of the void It feeds on your soul x2
6.
Nebula II 07:31
(Instrumental)
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​Exit mind Soon to be Blind and lost Dead end near Going down Through the sink Adrift Trying to understand Are we good enough to live without worrying much? Without pain? Are we good enough To face our most dreaded fears Within? I’m looking for the answer In alternative #6 Exit life Soon to be Pale and cold Silent fear Filling up The thick air Adrift Trying to understand Are we good enough to live without worrying much? Without pain? Are we good enough To face our most dreaded fears Within? I’m looking for the answer In alternative #6
8.
​When I look at you I don’t know how to feel If I smile at you I don’t know how you’ll take it If I was Someone you could love And be Be with you And be Be with you There is something about you I haven’t felt in years And it’s good to know I’m not dead inside But you’re not Feeling the same way To be To be with you To be To be with you
9.
​What is this word called love a word that can bring so much joy and happiness What is this word called love It can turn your life from bliss to misery What is this word called love My life was ruined almost twice by it What is this word called love My worst sorrows in life are all caused because of it I can’t stop loving I can’t stop loving Curse this agony Curse this broken heart It might end up killing me What is this word called love A word that’s filled with hope and dreams What is this word called love A word that’s filled with sadness and pain What is this word called love A word that’s filled with rage and despair What is this word called love I’ve seen my life withering away I can’t stop crying I can’t stop crying Curse this warm feeling Curse this sense of longing It might end up killing me
10.
I wish I could’ve done something I wish I could just understand How things went to Hell Just overnight I can see you felt just left aside I can see you felt just waiting by For me to change, For things to change To no avail I just saw your face of worry I just didn’t try hard enough For you not to be, For you not to feel Unworthy And I did some terrible things And my stupid pride got in the way And I carried on being myself And I saw you just slipping away But I know But I know You don’t hate me And I know And I know I don’t hate you You treated me like a real man You were in love and so was I But things just started, to fade Into dust I gave you my whole heart and even more I made you laugh and I made you cry But somehow I stopped making you feel Like a woman You had to endure my stubbornness You had to deal with my bipolar mess But you had your own troubles in your mind It made you unhappy And you said some terrible things And you made me feel so low And you just couldn’t understand And you saw me just fading to black But I know But I know You don’t hate me And I don’t And I don’t I don’t hate you I think about you everyday I keep myself from calling you To let you be, to let you see You're free I still have your pictures with me I keep them under my bed So I can keep your memories Close to me I'm at peace with the way things are now I won't force you to be with me Because time will tell If we can be a couple Or just friends And I know And I know You don’t hate me And you know And you know I don’t hate you
11.
Voyage 68 10:06
(Instrumental)
12.
(Instrumental)

about

My second solo album showcases a deeper side of my musical mind. I dwell on very personal issues such as the hardships of love and heartbreak, the despair and impending sense of death related to it. There are lighter topics too such as the longing for happier times as a young boy and the innocence that is associated with it. I also dwell on topics such as the fear of dealing with the future and also the fear of dying. There are some heavy and spacey instrumental pieces too to add variety to the album. I decided to name it "Melancholia" due to the overall melancholic vibe of it.

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released July 1, 2017

All songs written, arranged, performed, recorded and produced by Mauricio Ibáñez at The Music Lair studios.
Second guitar solo on "Nebula II" by Gabriel Hidalgo.
Photography by Felipe Carreño.

℗ 2017 Mauricio Ibáñez
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Mauricio Ibáñez Santiago, Chile

Musician, songwriter, arranger, guitar player and music producer from Santiago, Chile.
My musical influences draw from the alternative and progressive rock realms. Main influences: Porcupine Tree, Steven Wilson, Blackfield, Radiohead, Dream Theater, Anathema, etc. ... more

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